Happy Monday

My first day of training.

I’m a little frustrated. I’ve been a trainer since my very first job at 11! Yeah…

When I train people I ask what their learning styles are. This makes a huge difference in how I’m going to lay out the steps or the discussion.

I’m a listener, and I need to know what you’re doing and the why behind it. I watch what you’re doing why you’re explaining it to me. And lastly, I’m a hands on person.

Today was chaos to me. I had to stop and make it make sense for me. Watching people work is fine. But it doesn’t help me if you’re not explaining or telling me what you’re doing. And getting frustrated at me, isn’t helpful either. I finally informed someone that I learn differently then he’s expecting!

I vented to Patrick. I don’t want to rock the boat. I’m excited to do this job! But I’m expected to go ‘live’ in 2 weeks!! I’m trying not to freak out!! HA!

Next week when someone is on vacation, I’ll be asking the other person to help me learn and allow me to take notes. I take notes so as not to continuously ask the same questions all the time. I know that is annoying. But if I’m not trained to my satisfaction, then I’m going to be annoying!

Until tomorrow, which is 1 of my long days. Which is going be longer. Patrick has to drop me off 3 hours early to make it to his appointment on time. Oh well, it is what it is when a family has only 1 vehicle.

From a new AI app, Feels Art.AI it’s an interesting idea.

And this result, see below, does capture my anxiety. It was done at the time I was having a severe anxiety attack.

Severe Anxiety Attack

I really am excited about this job! I’m a Type A personality and I stress if I feel I’m not doing as well as I should be. I’m still working on that. Years of unlearning to do.

The vacation wasn’t long enough

I had my perk day, and then we had the day after Thanksgiving off and I wasn’t on call this past weekend, so I had a five-day vacation that only cost me 4 hours of PTO (Personal Time Off) for the 4 hours I left early on Tuesday to kick start my vacay! I mean c’mon who wouldn’t have done that?

I came back to work with yet another surprise, my new supervisor went into labor last Tuesday and started Maternity leave so I’m back to doing what I originally used to do on the inpatient unit. NO big! I got it! I just don’t like the overbearing rude Insurance person that always, ALWAYS gets away with being Rude, Overbearing, and impertinent. Why? Because “Oh that’s just her, don’t take issue with it!” DUDE! if I did what she does to me, I’d be written up and possibly fired, so how does she get away with it, seriously, no one wants her job!! That’s the bottom line! UGH

Then I’m receiving text messages from people that aren’t getting the message that I’m at work and I’m busy, and then I’m getting phone calls from support staff, “You’re not busy and I have a question I need to be answered.” Right, okay, you can talk to the overbearing rude person when I don’t get this work done before noon! Thankfully, it’s 11:40 and I got the documentation done for her.

I’ve been having some severe chest pains and I have to use the bathroom but the stress of being yelled at takes precedence over holding it. And I know the chest pains are from the situation too! I’ve gotten my Nitroglycerin out though, just in case! I don’t know how I can explain to them that I have to reduce my stress! and being yelled at is not a good way to reduce my stress! HR doesn’t GAF, they work for the company! So, suck it up buttercup!

I’ve written in my gratitude journal, and I’m looking forward to lunch to use my other coping apps! Oh, and yeah, I forgot to grab lunch, so crackers it is. 😉 I’m grateful I have crackers, which is better than having nothing. See, I know how to use my gratitude skill. And I think my blood pressure might be lessening. I need to go see the med clinic nurses for my vitals.

Until later, go check out the new social media app that is intended to be the new Twitter, but honestly in my opinion it is much better than Twitter ever was! Most of the people I’ve interacted with it are respectful and friendly. Don’t get me wrong there are what I refer to as children, not mature adults, too! You can report them but with only 3 people currently employed, I just use the BLOCK button! That’s satisfying in my opinion. LOL 😀

I’ll try to update this later with my vitals for my information and for those that truly care. I know that this is another form of social media and that not everyone that reads it, cares for the writer. I’m not that narcissistic. LOL 😀

UPDATE: I was unable to get my vitals done, as I have a job to do and when I was able to see them, they were gone for the day! oops! I didn’t need my nitroglycerin after all. 😉

Moms Day 2021

So Patrick bought me the Shaq grill. The cats bought me a charm. It was a nice weekend- I wasn’t on call and could sleep in and nap on Saturday. 😂 #Goals

After grilling steak on the Shaq grill I was only half impressed. The steak was over cooked, the temperature was difficult and I got burnt by the steam. When Patrick went to take it apart and clean. That’s the other reason we decided to return it!

1-I got hurt! Steam burns hurt!

2-the temperature wasn’t right, even with the directions and the steaks were over cooked!

3- there was oil/grease from the steak on the insides! The oil tray was easy to remove, yet difficult to put back in place! The oil was on the heating coils?!?!?! and that’s when we both decided it was being returned!! But seriously the Steam burn 🔥 was the first thing that ticked Patrick off- I GOT HURT, COOKING! On a product I shouldn’t have gotten hurt on! And yes, it was level on a flat surface!

Yay! For Sam’s Club! Yes, we’re Prime Members! Buying in bulk is smart! Costco is not worth the price of membership for US! To far away, overpriced food and multiple reasons-which sucks because I know they’re good to their employees!

But Sam’s has real food-that I can cook, that’s good quality in bulk and reduces our carbon footprints 👣 cause we stock up and go to the grocery store less!

Plus they’re 100% guarantee is amazing! Patrick returned the grill from hell, without the printed receipt and they looked up his purchase on the computer 🧑‍💻 and the money 💵 was returned on his card. Easy Peasy! He bought us other food items while there.

At this point and after the ordeal at the nail salon in Muncie. TNails, 20 years I’ve been going there and NOW, they’ve chosen to argue with me?! My manicurist quit! Wages are awful! We’ve given her 100.00 dollars in tips to help her! But yeah, she quit! 😭 so I saw the third in charge and she didn’t do bad until I informed her that the product she used -who markets dip and polish together for hands/feet, didn’t match! And she lied about basic science! “The polish oxidized in the box!” *it’s a new unopened in a sealed box polish!! Where and how did this oxidize? OMG 😳 stop lying 🤥

My toes were red my nails were pink! They were ALL supposed to be pink! So, she started painting OVER THE RED! WTH! 🤦🏻‍♀️ seriously 😳 no, just no! I asked to have the toe polish removed and just repainted with a pink. Reasonable in my opinion! But that’s when she was arguing with me and then Patrick! Yep, that’s when he said we’re going elsewhere! Bye 👋🏻 bye 👋🏻 TNails

So yeah my Mother’s Day weekend was overall nice! I enjoyed spending time with Patrick and then playing with the fur kids. 🐈‍⬛ JiJi and 🐈‍⬛ Isis.

And I did like the concept of the indoor grill. What’s your opinion on the Ninja Foodie Grill?

Have an amazing day!

Aloha 🌸🌼🌺🌸🌼🌺

**Updated due to the word functions! Finishing my sentences WRONG AND USING THE WRONG WORDS! it just did it again! I caught it this time!

Oh and here’s the charm the fur kids bought me!

Good taste

A Gold Maneki Neko aka the Lucky Cat

April 12th

Ugh 🤦🏻‍♀️ it’s been a while since I’ve been able to blog. I was on the inpatient unit, which I thought I was doing well with. And then directly after I returned from bereavement leave for my Dad, I was informed they hired someone! It hadn’t been posted and I wasn’t given the opportunity to apply! Oh and the supervisor that hired her, is gone now and the HR person that was looking into my inquiry 🧐 gone now. And no one knows what the fuck I’m talking about. 🤦🏻‍♀️

So I still have my job there. But ya know?

Then I had to take MY VACATION TIME for a 3 day seminar as my supervisor told me NO! He wasn’t going to pay for it or allow paid time for it! This is the same dude that stated, “I don’t like you but I don’t have to. I just have to make sure I do my job.”

He doesn’t like me for Religious reasons. But I have no recourse according to the ex lawyer I spoke with. He’s an idiot x lawyer-no longer practicing and doesn’t have the ability to in Indiana anymore. But still wants to charge full prize and won’t talk to you until your card clears! Yes! I’m serious! And he’s condescending the entire time!

Thief!

So I keep reporting this asshole as stealing my colors-that I had gotten permission from the artist to color! I was even on the Artist’s website. An honor in my opinion. And then enter this asshole who has stolen my art and then “enhanced it by Paul Hirsch” NO, you didn’t enhance it, you fucked around with it with filters!! Any monkey with a filter program can do that, asshole!

“Oh I hope you’re not mad at me?” Paul Hirsch

YES, I’M FUCKING FURIOUS AT YOU!! REMOVE MY COLORS FROM YOUR DEVIANT ART PAGE!  ASSHOLE ART THIEF  BECAUSE THE BITCHES IN CHARGE WON’T DO SHIT!

So, hey, want to show your support for me and disdain for this thief, please go above to the link and complain. I’m not the only colorist he’s done this too. He scammed them from an old Color for Big Kid’s email group. Toy, I think he has some of your’s, he has Buffy’s aka Pixel Tease, he has Blitz. He admitted he scammed them from our group!! Which is NOT COOL and seriously is theft in my book, as all of us colorists from that group worked hard with the artist’s to color them with permission. We all have a reputation to protect and this skeevy little asshole has done and pissed me off, not just for me, but for ALL of us colorist’s that he has violated!!! I’m not joking, I feel violated!

MY original color done with permission from Victor Rinaldi the artist!

 

Art Thief: Paul Hirsch version
Tell me this doesn’t look like shit! He removed my background and then darkened my colors! that’s it!! He removed Victor’s signature (BAD!) and he removed my signature! and he’s claiming this is his art now! 

You know what I’m going to say, FUCK HIM!

Lesson Learned!

 

Some ppl are nice and thank me for doing something, I do for myself and enjoy. They appear to appreciate what I do.

Others, on the other hand, are ungrateful little assholes! I’m not sugarcoating this entry!
I hate to be the one to tell everyone, but thank’s to one asshole until he apologizes or is sent packing, then NO I’m not putting myself up for more pain and negativity!

Then, I have ppl who once fucking again, don’t know how to read, I use Pigment to color my pictures, it’s NOT PHOTOSHOP PEOPLE! But it’s the only program I have! The laptop that I’m using is work owned!! Can’t put photoshop on here! The other laptop that I personally own doesn’t have enough space, and I can’t afford to upgrade that yet. So I’m fucking lucky that my iPad and iPen work fucking well with the pigment app!! Otherwise, I’d be worse off and unable to do what de-stresses and relaxes me! Well after the PM’s I’ve received tonight, fuck them!

I’ll be posting MY colors on my Creative Blog! And I’ll be posting my older colors that were btw done with photoshop and my Wacom tablet! The newer colors won’t be password protected. The majority of the others will be under password protection.

I’m just soooo angry and upset and depressed right now! I could punch someone!

I’m writing this to get it out and then maybe my chest will stop hurting and I won’t have to take that nitroglycerin tablet! People sometimes really don’t think before talking to me! I’m more fragile than I like to admit, actually! Ten years ago, I would’ve been hurt and then told them to fuck off and yet, continue on doing what I want! NOW! I’m still telling them to FUCK OFF! I’M GOING DO WHAT I WANT-BUT I’M HAVING CHEST PAINS Now, THANK YOU VERY MUCH YOU MOTHER FUCKING ASSHOLES!

so nitro time! fucking woohoo! you mother fucking assholes!

I promise tomorrow night, it’ll be better! I’ll be working on the Stargate Atlantis Rewind, yep! We kick it off this weekend!! WOOHOOO!

***UPDATE it took two nitroglycerin tablets for my chest to stop hurting. But still better than keeping all this shit bottled inside!

Reading, Comprehension and following directions?? *warning* Language!

Apparently, this is a superpower now too! No, really!!

I have put a question to ppl on Facebook and explicitly stated that “Likes” did NOT count and people are to verbalize the answer! As in, “Yes, M’Chel, I do know how to keep a secret!”
See, that doesn’t look that fucking difficult, does it?

I will be uploading all my colors onto my Creative Musings page and due to the nature of the majority of them, Nudity!! PPL get upset over the human form??? Honestly, and to make it funnier in my opinion, these are CARTOON CHARACTERS!! Yep!  So, I was offering my Friends in my one group the chance to be given the password! and not have to jump hoops, answering 3 to 5 questions before I give someone a password to view the pix. And I will need people’s email addresses for this! So, if you know me on facebook, might want to send me a PM (private message: Subject: Password, and input your email address) That is ALL!! I don’t chat in facebook PM’s, it’s annoying. I do, however, talk with people via gtalk and gmail.

so, I will be posting this next on Facebook and see who comments and who sends me PM’s correctly, and well, honestly, read, comprehend and follow the fucking directions!

OMG!

Look a pretty picture of Alexandria!! 

the opposite of anger and annoyance is??? IOTD

credit is listed on the art piece

Facebook Jail

so, Get This! Facebook is known for sharing things, from your friends and other sites of interest that you think your friends would like or enjoy!!

And I’m back in FACEBOOK JAIL! why? Because I was sharing to fast or too much or I don’t freakin know!! it’s annoying!! I’ve been in Jail on and off since Saturday! WTH!!

So have a pretty picture of Alex! lol I’ll try to do more of her Geeky Corner, but I’ve been feeling really depressed myself lately! Maybe some news I’ve heard will change that, we’ll have to wait and see.

And I’m looking forward to starting the Stargate: Atlantis Rewind soon! Woot!

at this moment