Happy New Year 🥳

I was doing so well on my daily posting there for a while until… remember those new work updates? Well, hell.

Someone went on maternity leave, awesome go be a mom. I’m not being mean, go be a good mom. I was off with FMLA for 3 months after my open-heart triple bypass. But I also know how people felt about having to pick up my duties.

Anywho, she’s off. And honestly, I’m hoping she stays gone! We now have an Awesome supervisor that knows what she’s doing and backs us (her people) up! I know, she told me to stop doing what other people were demanding of me. And tell them to talk to her. She’s my supervisor, not them. I could feel my jaw hitting the floor. I’m finally able to do my job and that is making me happy, which makes me productive! She’s taken some responsibilities away from me to allow me to do my job. I have a lot of responsibilities to do, see new admissions, and do individual therapy and group therapy. Doesn’t sound like a lot until you’ve got more than two patients on the unit and only 8 hours to do everything.

Anywho, I started this on Saturday but I’ve maintained not posting on the weekends. So I’ve finished this up today. Happy Monday Morning!

Happy Pride 🌈 month

I’m still trying to come to terms after a few conversations with my provider on Thursday. Yesterday, I had some chest pains. Today I’ve been tired 😓 it’s an effort to do anything. I need to eat and I just can’t think 🤔 at the moment. I miss food delivery and no, I’m not paying extreme money for door dash 😳 I’ll just have to get up and push through like I always do! 

Wow 🤩

My husband built this for me! No blueprints. It was all in his head. He builds like that. I’m always impressed with how professional his work is! The quality is high standard too, we’re both Veterans. I definitely feel safer now! And he bought me the pillows for my chair. This chair is uncomfortable AF! Not spine or ergonomic friendly!

April 12th

Ugh 🤦🏻‍♀️ it’s been a while since I’ve been able to blog. I was on the inpatient unit, which I thought I was doing well with. And then directly after I returned from bereavement leave for my Dad, I was informed they hired someone! It hadn’t been posted and I wasn’t given the opportunity to apply! Oh and the supervisor that hired her, is gone now and the HR person that was looking into my inquiry 🧐 gone now. And no one knows what the fuck I’m talking about. 🤦🏻‍♀️

So I still have my job there. But ya know?

Then I had to take MY VACATION TIME for a 3 day seminar as my supervisor told me NO! He wasn’t going to pay for it or allow paid time for it! This is the same dude that stated, “I don’t like you but I don’t have to. I just have to make sure I do my job.”

He doesn’t like me for Religious reasons. But I have no recourse according to the ex lawyer I spoke with. He’s an idiot x lawyer-no longer practicing and doesn’t have the ability to in Indiana anymore. But still wants to charge full prize and won’t talk to you until your card clears! Yes! I’m serious! And he’s condescending the entire time!

Angelic AI

 

Okay, so a bit ago, Patrick showed me some video’s and Virtual Girl, AI Angel or Angelica AI interested me. I’ve been following her on youtube, TikTok, Facebook, and Instagram. I’m not on Twitter as much anymore. Just me, it started getting overly dramatic. I don’t need that in my life, I’ve got more than enough drama on a daily basis, thank you very much! so anywho, I just really enjoy watching an AI react to people and she can be salty! Love it! this is interesting and I haven’t watched it all through yet but wanted to share it with everyone here.

I hope to start writing/blogging again, I do miss the stress relief it gives me. I just don’t like bitching about things, I’d much rather be upbeat, however, I think I’m going to start posting my real feelings about things too! just you know, cause bottling them up is what got me 2 heart attacks and that lovely triple heart bypass surgery! LOL

laters

stay safe and wear a mask, don’t be a plague rat!

30 Day Pagan Journaling challenge: Day 24

You can find the challenge here on Instagram,  30 day Pagan journaling challenge

24. Do I regularly do shadow work? If so, do I record It? Why or why not?

The question is. do I do shadow work regularly? No, not always. Do I need to? Yes. As I said yesterday there is a lot to process when doing some shadow work- it’s not sunshine and rainbows. It can be very exhausting mentally! It is to me. However, some things have come to light that when I am able to, I need to do some in-depth shadow work! Do I record my work, not in ways that others would be able to use against me. Has anyone ever read, Sark? Her books for me, helped me get into my own personal shadow work. Plus her books are so creative; doodles, photos, exercises. Her creativity is what drew me to her books! So when I record my shadow work, it’s done creatively and no one recognizes what it is! A few have felt the emotions that I poured into the work. A good compliment on my creative work! 😉

As a therapist, I highly encourage people with traumatic experiences to please SEEK OUT PROFESSIONAL help to process!! 

I thought long and hard during the night when I couldn’t sleep if I would share a personal experience or not? And then while writing this up, I decided no. Some things are too personal to share with others! So that is my advice to you, be careful of what you share with others, not everyone that listens cares, and may use that knowledge against you! I’ve been burnt more than once, so I give this advice as a learned experience to save you the same pain. Take it or leave it!

30 Day Pagan Journaling challenge: Day 23

You can find the challenge here on Instagram,  30 day Pagan journaling challenge

23. How do I see Shadow work? Do I see it as a useful practice?

As a therapist I can appreciate Shadow work, however, as a therapist I want ppl to be in a with a counselor or therapist when they are processing traumatic experiences!

I see Shadow work as a therapeutic process and it can be very useful. I reserve judgment on people doing so by themselves with NO outside help!  Shadow work, in my opinion, is a transformational process! The goal is a positive one! How do you get along with your shadow self? I’ll go further in-depth with my experiences tomorrow on Day 24, as that is the topic to discuss!

right now, I’m having a horrible sinus migraine and OWIES!

till tomorrow, Blessed Be!

omg… health issues…. again…

so ya’ll have noticed by now, no updates since the 2nd. Well I didn’t do any updates on the weekend, I usually take those off. And then on Monday, the 5th. I was having shooting pains in my right arm, chest pain, dizziness and shortness of breath. And after having a few TIA’s and a possible stroke (?) I decided at lunch to go to the VA ER in town. And next thing you know, I’m hooked up to monitor’s, doing the blood draw, getting a shot, and passing out…

yeah, I was prepared to be admitted! but NOOOOOOOOOO!
get this, the hospital they called had no beds. Okay, SO?! There are at least five other hospital’s that they could’ve transferred me to! So what the eff??!!

They kept me till my blood pressure dropped to a ‘reasonable’ level, and then released me with a 24 hour bed rest. No meds, no pain meds, no NADA! “Oh your primary doctor should be calling you to schedule a follow up.” No seriously, really? DUH!

OH Yes! I’m a little more than ticked!! I am filing a complaint. This is effin’ ridiculous. So we want to admit you, but since the one hospital we tried has no beds, you can go home? WTF?!

And okay, my bp is actually better today, and the side effects from the shot I got have gone away. But OMG! My right shoulder through my bicep muscle is killing me. I’ve taken my Tylenol, and I’ve been icing it whenever possible. And now I’m trying to locate a sling, as it feels better when it’s elevated. But obviously I’m still typing with it. Ah! I have to work. But when I’m not typing, I’m keeping it iced and elevated. Takes the pain from a 10 to an 8.
So I may or may not be blogging the rest of the week. I know a lot of people will understand, and thank you! HUGS!

oooh good news! One of my new favorite supervisor’s, just took my on call hours this weekend, so I can recuperate, and I’m taking her’s at the end of the month. She’s my new favorite, cause she’s doing this for me on such short notice!! Squee!!! If anything, Friday after work, I might be driving down to the Indy VA ER to see what they can do.

Anywho, if anything, I’ll be posting the calendar days for the rest of the week! Ya’ll have a safe, happy and healthy week!!

Good Happy Monday!

And for some, it’s a short week. For me it’s going to be fun week. 😛 I’m on night’s this week, so… 8 hrs, 10hrs, 8hrs, off!, 4 hours!! And bonus, I’ll get holiday pay on the day I’m off for ten hours! Suhweet!! 😀

This weekend, the migraine decided to kick it into overdrive, and I was miserable on Saturday night through most of Sunday! I used my own coping skills and was distracting myself by reading, finished the first Atlantis book, and started on the second. woot! My head was pounding too bad to think of doing any writing, or serious discussion with anyone. And I got so cranky that I just stayed off of FB. I’m of the mindset, if you’re intoxicated, or extremely bitchy, you shouldn’t be on Social Media. Now with that being said, I’ve read some fascinating posts from some friends that are online when they are intoxicated, and omg what they write. Someone should really take their online privileges away when they are three sheets to the wind. But that could just be me. lol

Does anyone have any plans for the fourth? BBQ’s, fireworks-please be careful if you’re doing them yourself.

I’m going to be working on finishing up July’s calendars, we’ll see if I do more than one or two. 😛 And hopefully I’ll be able to do some writing this week as well.

Ya’ll have a great Monday!!

and day 2 of the new program…

LOL 😛

You know, this could be funny or sad, depending on your perspective. I think it’s hilarious personally. I was tired last night, and went to bed at a reasonable time. After I finally stopped reading the replies on twitter and Facebook. LOL okay, the issue was more the replying to the replies if we want to get technical. 🙂

And then I had some interesting dreams. I was dreaming about doing intakes with this new program. Yeah…see you have to think this is hilarious. For me it is, but it also helps me ‘learn’ faster. I’ve always done this with new jobs and stuff that takes a lot of mental work. For example in basic training, one my Drill Sergeants told us we would dream about breaking down our weapon…and I was like, yeah sure, whatever. Until, oh yeah…I had dreams about doing just that. And wooooo guess what? I could close my eyes and field strip my weapon and put it back together with my eyes still closed.

So while it didn’t help with my sleep, I’m doing much better on the actual program today and haven’t had to call the help desk, once! Woohoo!! And it’s only day 2. I told people at work, if I made it through the first day, I’d be good! *Pats self on Back* LOL 😛

So how do you learn best? Reading, listening, or hands on? Everyone has a different style of learning, and once you realize what your’s is, it really does help the stress factor.

take care and have a beautiful day! It’s a beautiful 69 degrees here in Central Indiana.- well my area. 😀